I think it is the most liberating thing to know that I could go to RDU right now with a credit
card and passport, and just up and go! Anywhere!!! Seriously, how freaking freeing would it be to just up and fly to Europe?! I would totally do it if I had a remotely significant amount of savings.
I can't find my green flower hat and that makes me really upset. I bought it in Geneva (at H&M, but still!) and I must find it.
I just really like my room. It's awesome and blue-green and ... awesome again, for emphasis. I just thrive on having my own space and decorating it the way I love it. See, this part of me wants to change my focus to graphic design (too late now, really), but I went to world market today and I feel like if I could just walk around and absorb inspiration from the patterns and color combinations and graphics out there, I could be really creative.
Good thing I got into Intro to Graphic Design next semester! And I'm doing studio photo, which means even more creativity! Wooo!
I need to make a list of things to do tonight:
1. Work on Multimedia Exam
2. Finish Montague photo book
3. I really would like to practice piano. I haven't in sooo long and I really want to learn Christmas music... or Pachelbel's Canon in D.
4. Write Tiff's card to go with her birthday present (two months late). I'm a bad friend.
5. Laundrytime!
6. Hangy-outy-with-bristol-time!
I am also excited about tomorrow because it is a day full of singing! See, this makes me want to change my major to music because I have become addicted to choir and other such musical things. I would love to be a high school choir teacher.
I would love to be a high school teacher, period.
Here are the occupations I am contemplating, that are currently posted to my door:
-Teacher
-Social Worker
-Graphic Designer
-Tour guide (TEMPORARILY, and in Florence, Rome, Bologna, Munich, Ireland, the UK, Sweden or Spain)
-Photojournalist
-Counseling Psychologist
-School Psychologist
-2 years of missions
-Youth ministry worker
-Travel journalist
-Freelancer and blogger (I would clearly put more effort and less stream-of-consciousness into that blog).
Potential Locations:
Ireland
New York City
Greensboro
Stockholm
Africa, anywhere.
Maybe even New England somewhere. Unless The Happening... well... happens, and the trees kill off everyone.
Geez, that was a terrible movie.
Anyway. Enough future talk. Here is what is happening currently:
School.
Um. That's about it.
I'm taking voice lessons, which are going pretty well, I can totally tell that I'm improving a lot, but I get really frustrated because you can't really separate yourself from your voice. I can't walk away from it, it's always with me and in me, and so when I feel like I'm doing badly, I tend to internalize. I'm also getting over the fact that I don't like to be loud, which means I totally wimp out instead of going for the really high stuff that I know I can hit. Hm, confidence issues? That's totally new to me! (Written with more than a hint of sarcasm)
I've taken a not-so-good-hiatus from spending time with God, but, by his grace, I'm back. I'm re-reading through John, and that's giving me a new appreciation for the life of Jesus, and for the gospel. The words, "grace upon grace," keep resonating in my head. God knows I need that to be in my head as much as possible, or else I get really discouraged and distracted.
Something J.D. said in his sermon last week (that I listened to this morning) really struck me: that we distract ourselves from the fact that we are just unhappy. I have really felt it this past couple of weeks, and I finally broke down one evening, driving home. I need Him so desperately, and I have COMPLETELY been distracting myself-- with these dreams of mine, with wanting-but-not-really-wanting-a-boyfriend, with school, with making myself more stressed than I need to be. All to pass the time so I didn't have to think about how miserable my life is when it's not centered at its core on the Lord.
But I'm learning! Yay!
With love and probably wearing my favorite fall-leaf-shirt for the last time this season,
Megan
Currently listening (with fervor) to: The Hush Sound
Currently sipping: hot chocolate
Currently wishing for: snow
Also, if you want to listen to something precious, this little old fashion photographer is so cute.
You. Guys. Big news. I FOUND MY HAT. (I just typed, "I found my hate," and it made me chuckle). No, but really, I found my flower hat and I am full of glee and relief.
I think that this was lovely and that you are too. God will show you what to do next year. I have full confidence. And God will also provide for your needs, beyond what you can imagine. xoxo.