Sunday, I climbed into my jeep after a day of Raleigh-going. I drove onto 540, and in front of me was a beautiful sunset-- on the twilight side-- with streaks of lavender clouds all across the sky like paint. I gazed and sang to great songs on my ipod, and then... I realized I had missed my exit. By this time, almost all traces of the sun were nearly gone, and the sky had faded to indigo. I took the next exit and, pretty sure I recognized the name of the road, took it to 40.

But that little break from all things academic and obligatory was nice. It was a time to breathe--albeit only 15 minutes on a Sunday evening-- it was so refreshing.

The Daily Tar Heel is going to be a LOT of work, I think. Shifts are five hours long, and they follow my longest day of classes. I'm also applying for a series of jobs.

The summer is far from my mind, as far as internships and jobs are concerned... I am in the process of applying for some things. But I know I am really ready for sleeveless tops, flip flops, open windows and a little bit more country music than I typically permit my speakers to play. I want an adventure, I want my hair to grow out. But I AM still happy with scarf weather and potential snowstorms. So, I'm content.

I finished an advertising project today... that just made me really relieved. Another thing to check off in my planner!

Hopefully, the same will happen with many other things over the course of this semester.


I really, really, really miss Europe.

With love and toothpaste,
Megan

I'm pretty convinced that I'm going to look back in a few years and ask myself what I was thinking, all those hours I spent looking at freaking facebook and doing things of no purpose.

I need to read more and seek God and knowledge and eloquence and things of importance. I do not need to waste my life doing things that don't matter, things that aren't beautiful and ordained by the Lord for my benefit.



I went to Crusade last night, and it was really great. I used to be an IV-er, but for some reason it was really hard for me to fit in to that group of people. But at Crusade, the speaker talked about prayer, and he handed out this sheet FULL of verses on the effectiveness of prayer. And I learned something new-- that God chooses to use our prayers in His plan. I feel like a lot of people make the argument that prayer doesn't really do anything because God is sovereign and knows what's going to happen anyway. I've also heard that prayer is just for our benefit and doesn't really change things. But there was one verse that I don't remember seeing before, and God said that He wanted to save a city, if only someone stood up. But no one did, and so He destroyed it. And there is, of course, the verse that says the prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective.

I need to get these references together.

But that's something I need to be learning-- what a privilege it is that Jesus died so that the curtain between us and the Holy of Holies could be torn in two, that we can speak with the God of the universe, and He desires so deeply for us to do so!

I think this hit me especially hard because lately I've been praying for guidance in a certain really important situation... but it was just essentially a repetitive, "Show me what to do, God, please."

Sooo yes. This was good for me to hear.

And I'm going to buy groceries today. No more icky lean cuisine "butternut squash ravioli."

With love and freedom Friday,
Megan

I feel like a little knot of nerves and upset-stomachyness.

I am really overwhelmed/not knowing what to do this semester.

Oh well. One audition tonight, and it will be done and I won't regret not having tried out, and if I get in, good. And if not, then other things to do! LOTS of other things. Bluh. And God will make it happen the way He wants.

For now... one thing at a time. It's gonna be ooooook. Right? Right!

With love and eeeeeeee this needs to just be overrrr,
Megan

I have moved into my apartamento and I'm all settled in! It's really nice to be in a new place. I like it.

School starts tomorrow, and I'm sort of excited-- for like the first week of new classes. After that, life will be a whirlwind and I will be craaazy busy-- (hopefully) the Daily Tar Heel and a job and school and coaching two Upward teams. I don't want to burn out, though. That would be bad. I need to make sure I get enough sleep and use my time super-wisely. Please, Lord, help.

I'm particularly dreading Mass Communication Law... my books look horrendously boring. In fact, one of them is the North Carolina Media Law Handbook... all of these bullets and footnotes and jargon that I am not even closely familiar with. *Insert a Goob "bleh" here*

Via San Gallo, I miss you. Dearly.

I got a CD for Christmas that has some lovely, quiet songs on them. Here is part of one.

Through days of toil when heart doth fail,
God will take care of you.
When dangers fierce your path assail, God will take care of you.

God will take care of you,
Through every day,
O'er all the way.
He will care for you.
God will take care of you.

Yay hymns.

God will take care of me. I need to spend so much more time with Him.

With love and newness,
Megan

Today was a good day, and let me tell you why. I woke up at a fairly decent hour, got a haircut, bought an "I'm totally going to kill this interview" pair of khakis, and spent Christmas money on much-needed but boring things such as a drying rack, hooks and nails and manly tools, and a USB cord for my printer.

I have my very first job interview tomorrow at a store at Southpoint. I'm quite excited, because this is quite a fun store with an environment that totally sucks me in. I can't believe I'm 20 and have never actually interviewed for a job... they've always been offered or extensions of old jobs. So this will be good.

There is so much on my mind right now, and it's really frustrating. Relationship issues, internship maybes, class complicatedness, thoughts of my future, lack of passion for one distinct ministry or place, materialistic me. Myself in general.

New Year's Resolutions
1. Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore, honor God with your body. 1 Corinthians 6:19-20
2. But his delight is in the law of the Lord, and on his law he meditates day and night. Psalm 1:2
3. ...For wisdom will enter your heart, and knowledge will be pleasant to your soul. Discretion will protect you, and understanding will guard you. Proverbs 2:10-11

In a nutshell, obedience to God.

I have a lot of thinking to do... Father, give me peace and understanding. And maybe some clarity.

With love and side bangs,
Megan