Right now, I feel like David after the Dentist. Sluggish and in a blur and, "Why is this haaappening to me? Is this gonna be forever?"
I'm generally a happy person. But this week, I am just in a rut. I talked to God about it. It was strange for me to just say to Him the words, "I'm sad." And it sucks not to be able to control how I feel. I'm sad about things I cannot change, things that shouldn't matter to me anymore.
It doesn't help that I'm probably going to be in Raleigh till January, which is longer than I originally planned.
So I'm doing what I can to take my mind off of things. Right now that looks like hot tea and reading some Milan Kundera (sketchy, but brilliant).
With love and a bit of heaviness,
Megan
