Soooore throat + Sicklyness = day off

And I like having a day off.

I really really like my new job. I like helping people figure out what they need and showing them how freaking cool Apple stuff is! Also, I am a nerd.

But having the day to do not much at all is really nice. I'm in my yoga pants and free sweatshirt from the chiropractor, and now I'm backing up ALL my Europe pictures onto DVDs (until I can get an external hard drive, that is), and it will be nice to free up my computer so I can do more fun things on it and it won't hate me because I have ten thousand pictures on it (literally).

I think Jesus is really really funny. Yesterday I read two passages in Matthew. In one of them, Jesus looks for a fig on a fig tree because he's hungry. When he can't find one, he says, "may you never bear fruit again," and the tree shrivels up. In the next passage, the pharisees ask him, "from whom do you get your authority?" and Jesus says, "Who do you think I get it from?" Realizing they can't win, they just answer, "We don't know." Jesus essentially replies, "Well if you don't know, I'm not gonna tell you." I just think that's funny.

My roomie and I have had great conversations lately about diversity and acceptance and reaching people who need help. Really good stuff that doesn't get talked about/thought about enough.

I need to put more thought into my thoughts. My mind is too shallow WAY too much of the time. Time to deepen it a lot.

With love and F.r.i.e.n.d.s,
Megan

I visited EmJay this weekend. I loved hanging out in Greensboro. I kind of really wish Chapel Hill was more like Greensboro... more artsy and laid-back instead of so preppy-ish. I still love my Chapel Hill, OF COURSE. But I really liked hanging out in Greensboro. I think it reminds me of Carrboro, so maybe I will spend s'more time there. And at Jack Sprat instead of Starbucks.

I need to read WAY more. I have so many books on my list but so few that get read, and when they do... it is slowly.

I am so fickle about everything. I want to paint and decorate things, and I want to make music and just travel and talk to people and HELP them. Oh my goodness, I love helping people. I want my home one day to be a refuge for others. I journaled about that in Italy for a couple of hours.

I need Jesus to fill me up. I feel like I always dry out when I try to do these things on my own. I can't help anybody if it's just me being full of me. I can't even help myself, for goodness' sake. I have so many things to get right with Him, so much discipline to develop.

Discipliiiine. Discipline means getting things done and doing things of importance instead of sitting on facebook for hours of my life. And getting up in the morning and doing my quiet time. And actively praying for people.

Yeah.

With love and yoga pants,
Megan

1. I started training at the Apple store today. I REALLY like helping people, and it is so much fun, and I love the products. How exciting.
2. My first photo ran in the paper today. It sucks and is kind of boring, but that is ok.
3. I did a lot of things today, but am still alive.
4. IT'S SNOWINGGGGG ;LSKDFJLKDFLSKDJFLKDJLJKDFS
5. I hope I don't have my midterm at 8 a.m. Do you know how FANTASTIC that would be?!?
6. But I still need to go study. Bye, blogspot.

with love and steak,
Megan

God's been teaching me a lot about prayer lately... about not just asking Him for guidance regarding my future or relationship or things of that nature. But just talking with Him. And I've been really hypocritical of that lately. It's really kind of embarrassing to start praying again after I've been so slack in that area... because you're talking to God, who you know you've neglected. And He knows you've neglected Him too. It's kind of humiliating, honestly. Just because I'm praying scripture and trying to wrap my mind around who He is. It's a lot to take in, I suppose, and I feel like a fraud sometimes when I talk to God. Sometimes it's really hard for me to believe He loves me as much as He does.

I have a polisci paper due tomorrow. Good thing I haven't started yet. Oops.

Also, I really like The DTH so far. It's kind of stressful/hard to get pics in the paper, but a good experience so far.
So now, off to dawdle and watch Super Tuesdayness and pretend to get my paper done.

With love, yogurt and federalism,
Megan

Sunday, I climbed into my jeep after a day of Raleigh-going. I drove onto 540, and in front of me was a beautiful sunset-- on the twilight side-- with streaks of lavender clouds all across the sky like paint. I gazed and sang to great songs on my ipod, and then... I realized I had missed my exit. By this time, almost all traces of the sun were nearly gone, and the sky had faded to indigo. I took the next exit and, pretty sure I recognized the name of the road, took it to 40.

But that little break from all things academic and obligatory was nice. It was a time to breathe--albeit only 15 minutes on a Sunday evening-- it was so refreshing.

The Daily Tar Heel is going to be a LOT of work, I think. Shifts are five hours long, and they follow my longest day of classes. I'm also applying for a series of jobs.

The summer is far from my mind, as far as internships and jobs are concerned... I am in the process of applying for some things. But I know I am really ready for sleeveless tops, flip flops, open windows and a little bit more country music than I typically permit my speakers to play. I want an adventure, I want my hair to grow out. But I AM still happy with scarf weather and potential snowstorms. So, I'm content.

I finished an advertising project today... that just made me really relieved. Another thing to check off in my planner!

Hopefully, the same will happen with many other things over the course of this semester.


I really, really, really miss Europe.

With love and toothpaste,
Megan

I'm pretty convinced that I'm going to look back in a few years and ask myself what I was thinking, all those hours I spent looking at freaking facebook and doing things of no purpose.

I need to read more and seek God and knowledge and eloquence and things of importance. I do not need to waste my life doing things that don't matter, things that aren't beautiful and ordained by the Lord for my benefit.



I went to Crusade last night, and it was really great. I used to be an IV-er, but for some reason it was really hard for me to fit in to that group of people. But at Crusade, the speaker talked about prayer, and he handed out this sheet FULL of verses on the effectiveness of prayer. And I learned something new-- that God chooses to use our prayers in His plan. I feel like a lot of people make the argument that prayer doesn't really do anything because God is sovereign and knows what's going to happen anyway. I've also heard that prayer is just for our benefit and doesn't really change things. But there was one verse that I don't remember seeing before, and God said that He wanted to save a city, if only someone stood up. But no one did, and so He destroyed it. And there is, of course, the verse that says the prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective.

I need to get these references together.

But that's something I need to be learning-- what a privilege it is that Jesus died so that the curtain between us and the Holy of Holies could be torn in two, that we can speak with the God of the universe, and He desires so deeply for us to do so!

I think this hit me especially hard because lately I've been praying for guidance in a certain really important situation... but it was just essentially a repetitive, "Show me what to do, God, please."

Sooo yes. This was good for me to hear.

And I'm going to buy groceries today. No more icky lean cuisine "butternut squash ravioli."

With love and freedom Friday,
Megan

I feel like a little knot of nerves and upset-stomachyness.

I am really overwhelmed/not knowing what to do this semester.

Oh well. One audition tonight, and it will be done and I won't regret not having tried out, and if I get in, good. And if not, then other things to do! LOTS of other things. Bluh. And God will make it happen the way He wants.

For now... one thing at a time. It's gonna be ooooook. Right? Right!

With love and eeeeeeee this needs to just be overrrr,
Megan